totally drained from a lot of stuff ard. books and notes and become my best friends and panadol became my favourite snack. wtf. i wasnt like tat in e past...dunno wad's wrong tis time round. hai. very scared bout my a's till i find it hard to sleep at night and become all tensed up at the slightest mention of the word A'levels. cant blame anyone for me bein scared and all cos i din study hard enuff. everytime i tot of the a's i'll be wondering, if i score badly (touch wood a millionth and many many times more) den if i really killed myself ( i am suicidal.die) wad would happen after tat? (first tot- ugly. right.) (second tot-who will wanna go my funeral?!) after thinkin so much, i realised there's no use thinkin cos killin myself is the last thing i wanted to do. yup. but i really wanna jus breakdown and cry yet doin so only serves to worry ppl ard me more den i end up all alone cryin at a dark corner. my life is jus plain pathetic the way it is now. after a's i think i might really cry. cos finally my mental torture will end. and it shall be the beginning of another-my results. like wtf can. now i really understand why a lot of ppl cant stand living in e edu system sometimes ( in fact, most of the times), its jus plain freaking hell. HAI. i am sad life de. =(

On second tot, mebbe wadever tat sound super emo now is cos i havin pms. oh well. losin my appetite everyday lo. HAI. but the good thing is at least can lose a teenie bit of weight.....................



well..alevels is approachin and everyone is gettin tenser...including me and i am regrettin for not workin as hard this year...hai..hope i could do fine...no...i must do fine...must win tat ass who din put in much hardwork and tinks tat i am stupid.ha.

anyways, i really wish SN will be fine...seein her so strong makes me uncomfortable..i rather she not bottle her feelings..i dun deny tat i drifted apart from her but deep down in my heart, she's still someone close to my heart and someone i cherish a lot..seein her like tat just made me feel real pained. but i'll pray for her and her family and tat seems like the only thing tat i can do as a fren now..

so much stuff happened ard me and it made me cherish my family even more den b4 and everythin ard me...so i noe i shud really work hard so i wun regret ystd. yep. tat's wad i'll do.



went to town ystd with my mum and sis to book tour and plannin to go china. yup. my onli condition to the wadever place we're goin to, is tat i can do shoppin. to my frens- " can buy gifts for u all le!!" haha... well..we went bugis street after tat and i bought a clutch me and mimi spotted on fri. its a cute design la. next time i'll post e pic of the clutch. haha. and i bought a top for 12bucks. and its jus black with some prints. yup. the whole funny thing bout ystd shoppin trip was my mummy and my sis tried this dress and they really liked it, but once they knew it cost 89.90, they were shocked. haha. so we din buy the dress hopin the price would go down. BUT seriously the dress's material is not worth tat much money nor the design nor the brand. yup yup. haha.

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anyway chatted wit pw for 5 hours on friday and nearly 3 hours ystd night...and all the way me and him chatted till 3am on both days. haha. which explains why i am losing my voice a bit. haha. =P but still i like chattin with him. and talked bout everything in e world. =D really thankful to have a friend like him lo.. oh! and i read pw's testimonials and saw teresa's testimonial to him. and i was shocked. cos she sound damn nice, SWEET and POLITE! tat's damn amazing! how come i dun get that kinda treatment!!! NOT FAIR! ha. oh wells.