totally drained from a lot of stuff ard. books and notes and become my best friends and panadol became my favourite snack. wtf. i wasnt like tat in e past...dunno wad's wrong tis time round. hai. very scared bout my a's till i find it hard to sleep at night and become all tensed up at the slightest mention of the word A'levels. cant blame anyone for me bein scared and all cos i din study hard enuff. everytime i tot of the a's i'll be wondering, if i score badly (touch wood a millionth and many many times more) den if i really killed myself ( i am suicidal.die) wad would happen after tat? (first tot- ugly. right.) (second tot-who will wanna go my funeral?!) after thinkin so much, i realised there's no use thinkin cos killin myself is the last thing i wanted to do. yup. but i really wanna jus breakdown and cry yet doin so only serves to worry ppl ard me more den i end up all alone cryin at a dark corner. my life is jus plain pathetic the way it is now. after a's i think i might really cry. cos finally my mental torture will end. and it shall be the beginning of another-my results. like wtf can. now i really understand why a lot of ppl cant stand living in e edu system sometimes ( in fact, most of the times), its jus plain freaking hell. HAI. i am sad life de. =(

On second tot, mebbe wadever tat sound super emo now is cos i havin pms. oh well. losin my appetite everyday lo. HAI. but the good thing is at least can lose a teenie bit of weight.....................